I’m insecure, I know what for.
This is me, in one meme. BOOM!!!
Well, I finally started gaining weight.. good, right? Except the rate of it terrifies me. 4 pounds in between weigh-ins separated by 1.5 weeks.. since then I can’t resist checking every day… a drop of a pound, then 3 pounds up.. in 3 days!!!!! WTF?!!! I’m not eating any junk, I’m not binging even on healthy food - mind you, extreme hunger did drive me to a few reactive eating episodes during those 1.5 weeks (plus stress of finals), but I’ve been good the past 3 days! Or am I overeating? Yes, i’m being told it’s water retention..but why is it in my thighs?! My legs are suddenly huge again, and they are the part of me I could never stand and always wanted to fix, and now it’s like I just started getting weight-restored, but my legs are already size-restored, and I can’t stand it.. I would restrict, but with my revved up appetite I would have to put all my focus and willpower into it, and I can’t do that now when I’m focusing on my studies.. I feel so out of control.. my body is making me eat more AND growing out of bounds, and all I can do is watch helplessly as it unfolds…
I cried for hours last night.
omg so cuuuuute!!!