This is me, in one meme. BOOM!!!
This is me, in one meme. BOOM!!!
Well, I finally started gaining weight.. good, right? Except the rate of it terrifies me. 4 pounds in between weigh-ins separated by 1.5 weeks.. since then I can’t resist checking every day… a drop of a pound, then 3 pounds up.. in 3 days!!!!! WTF?!!! I’m not eating any junk, I’m not binging even on healthy food - mind you, extreme hunger did drive me to a few reactive eating episodes during those 1.5 weeks (plus stress of finals), but I’ve been good the past 3 days! Or am I overeating? Yes, i’m being told it’s water retention..but why is it in my thighs?! My legs are suddenly huge again, and they are the part of me I could never stand and always wanted to fix, and now it’s like I just started getting weight-restored, but my legs are already size-restored, and I can’t stand it.. I would restrict, but with my revved up appetite I would have to put all my focus and willpower into it, and I can’t do that now when I’m focusing on my studies.. I feel so out of control.. my body is making me eat more AND growing out of bounds, and all I can do is watch helplessly as it unfolds…
I cried for hours last night.
omg so cuuuuute!!!
I went to the mall, and a little girl called me a terrorist.
My name is Ela. I am seventeen years old. I am not Muslim, but my friend told me about her friend being discriminated against for wearing a hijab. So I decided to see the discrimination firsthand to get a better understanding of what Muslim women go through.
My friend and I pinned scarves around our heads, and then we went to the mall. Normally, vendors try to get us to buy things and ask us to sample a snack. Clerks usually ask us if we need help, tell us about sales, and smile at us. Not today. People, including vendors, clerks, and other shoppers, wouldn’t look at us. They didn’t talk to us. They acted like we didn’t exist. They didn’t want to be caught staring at us, so they didn’t look at all.
And then, in one store, a girl (who looked about four years old) asked her mom if my friend and I were terrorists. She wasn’t trying to be mean or anything. I don’t even think she could have grasped the idea of prejudice. However, her mother’s response is one I can never forgive or forget. The mother hushed her child, glared at me, and then took her daughter by the hand and led her out of the store.
All that because I put a scarf on my head. Just like that, a mother taught her little girl that being Muslim was evil. It didn’t matter that I was a nice person. All that mattered was that I looked different. That little girl may grow up and teach her children the same thing.
This experiment gave me a huge wakeup call. It lasted for only a few hours, so I can’t even begin to imagine how much prejudice Muslim girls go through every day. It reminded me of something that many people know but rarely remember: the women in hijabs are people, just like all those women out there who aren’t Muslim.
People of Tumblr, please help me spread this message. Treat Muslims, Jews, Christians, Buddhists, Hindus, Pagans, Taoists, etc., exactly the way you want to be treated, regardless of what they’re wearing or not wearing, no exceptions. Reblog this. Tell your friends. I don’t know that the world will ever totally wipe out prejudice, but we can try, one blog at a time.
anyone now !!!!! make my night.
couldn’t have said it better myself
I’m sorry guys, I just feel bad for every bite of food I’ve taken today.. and every bite I will taken later cause I just can’t stop myself… I hate the hunger and I hate not being able to control it… I hope I dont end up purging again…